I am tired …

.. tired of trying to act like the big person in the family, when I am in fact the youngest ..

.. of worrying about tomorrow ..

.. seeing people roll their eyes when I walk my doggies of no breed at all. They dislike the idea of a dog that’s not from a champion dog or who’s just breathing near them ..

.. having to explain everything and to everyone ..

.. smelling all people who forgot about the water and the soap ..

.. hearing loud horrible music ..

.. seeing litter on the streets ..

.. finding some common topics to discuss with others since so few actually understand what I am talking about (I seem to be the freak .. the one with the internet) ..

.. seeing our leaders find all kinds of ways to cover their own corruption, God they couldn’t care less about this country ..

.. being stared at just because I love sports clothing and I don’t display makeup and manicure ..

.. I am tired of being mocked at by people who think this makes them superior ..

.. tired of people being shocked that a woman creates sites, manages forums and knows CSS ..

.. tired of the people who think that if I haven’t got  “balls” I surely have no brains either …

.. tired of fighting the death of the ones I love and losing all the time ..

.. tired of trying to live a better life ..

.. of trying to pass my limits even if I know I can’t do more ..

.. of writing negative stuff, even if it isn’t all ‘negative’ in my life ..

.. tired of feeling .. tired ..

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